Each of us wanted the others to look good and be successful, but whether they will admit it or not, I think we each wanted the spotlight and to look the best in every episode.” 6.On jealousy Holly: “Suddenly, Playmates who had once mocked me were kissing my ass, bringing me gifts and showering me with compliments now that I was Hef’s No. The sudden shift in the way some of those girls acted was completely obvious and shameless, but I suppose they thought I was too dumb to notice or that I would be so grateful to be treated kindly for a change that I wouldn’t object.” Kendra: “Nights were hard because while my Playmate friends got to go out and party, I would have to be home by 9 p.m.I guess Vicky figured that if she had to sleep with Hef, they should all have to sleep with him.” Kendra: “I had to be very drunk or smoke lots of weed to survive those nights – there was no way around it.” 2. Holly: “We were constantly reminded that the show was ‘s show – our contributions were irrelevant. According to our boyfriend, he could have splashed any three blondes on-screen and found instant success.” Kendra: “The crazy thing about television is that you are rarely allowed to grow.You are molded into a character based on some of your strongest traits, and you are forced to stay that way for your entire television life.” 3.Fans see you as the girl next door, tabloid editors see you as a story line and paparazzi see you as a target. Deciding he hadn’t done enough damage, he served me one final blow before storming out of the room: ‘You look old, hard and cheap.'” Kendra: “One night, we were all in the limo on the way to a book signing with Hef when he pulled me aside. They all had a pact that they were going to stick together and get rid of me. I’m tough, and I would never in a million years have let them know it, but it hurt my feelings.” 10. Holly: “How these ‘side boyfriends’ felt about their girlfriends dating Hugh Hefner, I don’t know.I imagine the girls weren’t forthcoming with these men and probably denied that they even had sex with Hef (they denied it to everyone).
I’d invested every part of myself in the mansion and had nothing waiting for me outside those gates.
It was weird, but in my heart, I felt like he was someone I could possibly trust.” 4.
On relationships with the other Bunnies Holly: “Leaving the other girls in her wake, Vicky charged up to my side of the bed, her nostrils flaring like an enraged bull and her fists clenched at her side.
"I wanted to share my most embarrassing moments, my most blissful ones and the ones that made me feel angry, embarrassed or sad." One incident that made her feel especially bashful occurred when she was dating Good Charlotte's Benji Madden back in 2009.
After having public splits from both Hef and Criss Angel, Holly and the rocker decided to keep this relationship a little more private -- much to the disappointment of her "Holly's World" producers.